Love
2004-07-29||xx||12:05 a.m.
I think people try to purposefully fuck you over. Why? Well, when I got to work and asked Bonilla if he had gotten my phone call he said he didn't, and that he was probably already at work at 4 anyways. First off, he's NEVER at work on time, so I know he bullshitted me.
Fucker.
So while I was headed to work tonight I got attacked bya big doberman, so... I went into traffic and some queaf decided to honk at me. WTF did he expect me to do? Move faster? Fucker ina steel car has nothing to worry about from a dog but little man with exposed legs on a bike has plenty. it's like being a plankton headed for a a whale mouth. Inescapable DOOOOOOOOOM.
Makes me wanna sing the doom song.
But that was a small part of tonight, it was actually a fairly ok day at work. Got out in good time, had a beer, got a ride home from mary's boyfriend, Josh. All was good, and it should continue to be good tomorrow too, hopefully.
Lyrics, what shall I choose? Ahh, got one. Ever hear of Delerium? No? Well, you should, so here's the lyrics to one of their songs, Love.
Even my heart is
Broken in two...
Now I feel low sense of certainty
Can there ever be any guarantees in life?
Tell me
You ask yourself
What do you know?
I know I値l always love you, baby...
And you'll ask me
How I feel about you
(I値l tell you)???
I know I値l always love you!
Even home
I feel whole often lost...
Feel low sense of safety,
Can there ever be any guarantees in life?
Tell me,
O-o-h tell me...
You ask yourself
What do you know?
I know I値l always love you, baby...
And you'll ask me
How I feel about you
I know I値l always love you!
I will take you away from the misery ???????
(Yes I will take you away)
???
I dream each year,
that I have loved you...
Cephy
PS- I had to add to this. I was watching MtV and this video came on that was so striking in it's imagery, and it's general sound that I had to search for the lyrics and get the song immediately. It's Kanye West, something I wouldn't normally listen to but this song is just amazing. It's called jesus Walks, and here's the lyrics to it.
"Jesus Walks"
Yo, We at war
We at war with terrorism, racism, and most of all we at war with ourselves
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me) with me with me with me [fades]
You know what the Midwest is?
Young & Restless
Where restless Niggaz might snatch your necklace
And next these Niggaz might jack your Lexus
Somebody tell these Niggaz who Kanye West is
I walk through the valley of Chi where death is
Top floor the view alone will leave you breathless Uhhhh!
Try to catch it Uhhhh! It's kinda hard hard
Getting choked by the detectives yeah yeah now check the method
They be asking us questions, harass and arrest us
Saying "we eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast"
Huh? Yall eat pieces of shit? What's the basis?
We ain't going nowhere but got suits and cases
A trunk full of coke rental car from Avis
My momma used to say only Jesus can save us
Well momma I know I act a fool
But I'll be gone til November I got packs to move I Hope
[Hook x2]
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks with me)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now
(Jesus Walks)
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs
(Jesus Walks with me)
I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long
To the hustlas, killers, murderers, drug dealers even the strippers
To the victims of Welfare for we living in hell here hell yeah
Now hear ye hear ye want to see Thee more clearly
I know he hear me when my feet get weary
Cuz we're the almost nearly extinct
We rappers are role models we rap we don't think
I ain't here to argue about his facial features
Or here to convert atheists into believers
I'm just trying to say the way school need teachers
The way Kathie Lee needed Regis that's the way yall need Jesus
So here go my single dog radio needs this
They say you can rap about anything except for Jesus
That means guns, sex, lies, video tapes
But if I talk about God my record won't get played Huh?
Well let this take away from my spins
Which will probably take away from my ends
Then I hope this take away from my sins
And bring the day that I'm dreaming about
Next time I'm in the club everybody screaming out
(Jesus Walks)
God show me the way because the devil trying to break me down
(Jesus Walks)
The only thing that I pray is that me feet don't fail me now