Buried Myself Alive
2004-07-08||xx||1:26 a.m.
I thought about changing my template tonight, which is odd, because I really love the one I have. I just thought, that perhaps, with the mood I am in, this one is perhaps too dark. So i was thinking something more cheerful, like the Cure, or NIN or something..
Yeah, i'm in a fucking mood.
Got home tonight, after a hugely annoying and fuckworthy day- it sucked royally. I needed soda so i went to the store and got some. As i walked back i was just beggin someone to start trouble with me... It would have been nice to do to them what i did to the gate earlier in the night. But, no one did, so i figured exhaust the body, you'll tire the mind and sleep will come easier.
nice thought, but no dice. Went for a ride later on. Took the bike out and went up to the college then back down. Odd, used to exhaust the fuck out of me when I was on rollerblades.
Korrie came in tonight, and the song running through my head is NIN's Something i Can Never Have. i am sure if anyone cares to think about it they can imagine the little connection between those two items. Everything was fine really- i was pissed, royally flat out dangerously pissed about work and some trash issues and so I went out to the bar to have a drink with Tony and Jermaine. I saw Korrie and went over to say hi. Everything was fine. Later, we moved to the bar to let josh clean the bar area and I sorta caught out of the corner of my eye Mr. Sparks slip Korrie a little kiss...Didn't watch much more after that, just annoyed. Not too mad about it, Sparky's a real nice guy, but still, just fucking annoyed.
Kinda odd how this post works backwards, right?
Anyways, earlier. Mexicans. Nuff said. I got a simple sentence for you guys, you don't even have to translate it to spanglish... it's a simple concept...
SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Getting so goddamned tired of busting my motherfucking ass on wednesdays when Jose just wants to talk to Luis and ignore me. Fuck you- I didn't even chatter that much with Mike when he worked there and he's my brother!
So, later... since we got busy as fuck late, I'm taking the trash out. Both cans have the linens sitting on top of them. Were not supposed to take the linens out- that's a server job, but me, being nice took them out anyways. Then, I get the beast. The can was full of broken plates, glasses, and water and it's an industrial can. Three feet tall, and wide as a fucker and just packed with shit. And no one helped me dump it. Getting a little tired of that shit too.
Came back in, gathered the line trash and found someone had tossed a bag into the stacked cans. THAT pissed me off. For one, can't leave trash in the cans- the electrical panel has a chance of tossing a spark. If it catches the trash I and everyone else there are out of a job because the resteraunt will burn down. For two, the cans were stacked four foot high and it wasn't a light bag- they could have been nice and left it on the fucking ground but no, someone had to be an ass. When i took the can out I had to jump back to avoid the sludge that came pouring out of the can/bag/dumpster. Three quick, furious punches later and I had broken the wooden gate...
Before.... Maria tries to phase out early. And I mean early. Eight pm. So of course, we get busy, and I am on salads trying to catch up. Then, disaster. Stacey coming through the door loses a glass. the glass shatters on plates on my salad station. I am not sure if there was any glass shards that went into the food so i had to throw out a LOT of product. Stacey doesn't realize I am not mad at her but in the same fucking righteously PISSED.
Oh yeah, and I tweaked my back trying to work faster than my body will allow. That's always nice. If it hurts tomorrow I am sorry Jermaine, but your gonna have to do the friers... I did them when your back was fucked, now it's your turn.
Oh yeah, and prob not buying that car either. Dad's got a few questions for Bob and well, it may just not quite be worth it. Especially if it costs a few hundred to get inspected. Besides, i kinda think Bob would be better off selling it to someone older, more established. I'm not quite ready to be buying s car anyways. End of summer seems much more likely.
The one good thing of the night? That song I have been waiting on forever finally got here...Finally.
Anyways, lyrics....Let's see...
The Used- Buried Myself Alive. yeah, it fits.
"Buried Myself Alive"
You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
[Chorus:]
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
[Chorus]
Nicer than that
Nicer than that
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you
[Chorus]
Nicer than that
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Cephy