Tuesday April something
2004-04-20||xx||6:39 p.m.
Some days, I wonder- should I put things in here or should I not? I mean it's obvious it's read by many, more so than those that have diaries and openly admit to it. For instance- I know that Nymdor occasionally reads this and as far as I know he doesn't have a diary anywhere. And I know that the nameless and untold purveyors of the doom of Amber's and I's relationship read this and hers, hoping to glean some scatterbrained information from the words that were written and script others for themselves...
Which I don't particularly care about- if you have nothing better to do, then do that. Whatever. But, what I want to say, what is burning a hole in me even now, is not going into here. No, sorry. Basically because I know too many people read this. Kinda like the Fool and his diary- all the crap that erupted over there because people took offence to his inner monologue, never once accepting the fact that they too had an inner monologue but were way too chickenshitted to give voice to it like he did.
But yeah- this thing. One person knows the extent of it, and that's for reasons because I am able to discuss anything with her. This weekend, more will know the extent of it, mainly because it will be cheaper than calling and ranting into their ears for a few hours. And if you want to know- well find me this weekend, and if I judge you worthy of knowing, then by god you will know. Until then, a warning. If I get onto Chrissy's comp before coming to FoF this weekend, I will endeavor to post what will be several monster posts. Saved up from me getting home late at night and writing. Some good stuff in there, and some stuff I have probably already posted, in some context or the other, but what the hell, right?
Gotta jet- saw some wooden bowls I have to have for this weekend.
Love,
Cephy