313- And In The Darkness, A Light...
2003-12-18||xx||2:00 p.m.
I'm not happy yet, but I am getting there. Yes, yes I am getting there.
Coming to terms with the sense of impending mortality, saying basically a giant big fuck you to those feelings. So, happy me there.
Happy also that my friend Sera. whom I have a mondo huge respect for, was finally voted into House Blackband. I can't wait to see her again- the road has been too long.
Also huge congorats to my former galfriend, Amber, for the huge thing that has occurred in her life. Mad props to you sweetie- I'm happy for you.
In vague happiness, I have a job coming up, a feast to provide for, and I am really looking forward to doing this one. I thought my days of feasting were over, with CG pretty much being all House Blackstar now, and twin lakes I am sure, tired of depending on me. Not that that's a bad thing really- there are a lot of good, talented, special people there, and I know that they have the talent neccessary to put on their own events and their own feasts. I love cooking for them, don't get me wrong, but sometimes I feel like they want to do it all themselves. Which is fine, really.
I still enjoy cooking though- doing events is what really drives me to go to them. I don't fight, or not often, and unless I am reeving( always), I really have nothing to do but converse, and drink.
I thought briefly about making a website, and listing what I have done feast/event wise, and so forth, like an advertisement, but apparently, this was not needed, since this offer came to me by word of mouth of supporters and friends. To that I thank you- I know I don't accept praise well, often just nodding and turning away, but to know I have done a good enough job in the past to be suggested for a future project by friends,m well, makes Cephy smile. Thank you.
So, I have a feast to plan for, something I am very excited to do, and headed home to do likely now. Can't wait to see what I can pull out of the hat this time. Whatever occurs, I guarantee it will be fun. And good too.
Peace out all, I love you all,
Jon